Alright, I know that I have not been updating my blog as much as I should and I really am leaving a lot of people out in the open. I know there are a few of you who actually follow my blog despite the fact that it almost never gets updated at a consistent rate. To those who actually have been following I guess I should be thanking you. First, let’s go over 2011. How did the year of 2011 go for me? To be honest, it doesn’t seem like there was much to be said except a lot of shit happened.
The Blockbuster store near where I lived closed due to “lease being too expensive.” Now whether it’s true or not I’m not entirely too sure. I don’t have enough evidence to even begin to come up with theories. Nevertheless it has hurt my pocket in terms of paying for gas. The store was only a five minute walk for me. Luckily I got transferred to a store in Orting but that’s roughly a 20-30 minute drive depending on the traffic.
I also managed to go to Sakura-Con again. I was accompanied by Leah Alfonso, a really good friend of mine. She and I just pretty much walked around the entire convention just looking for random stuff to do. There were a few people that she and I appreciated; for the most part though they were not exactly the best. I can’t say I was exactly all that amazing either. I wore the Organization XIII jacket that I had bought about half a year ago prior to going to that convention. Leah
wore a black and white outfit which looked REALLY cute on her. Anyway, two events that I remember the most from that time was when I entered a foam sword tournament (to which I lost unfortunately) and this lame Final Fantasy styled battle thing between a team of 3 cosplayers against another team. It was corny beyond imagination. I still think a Little Busters! team would have been awesome as HELL. If there was one, I would have easily stayed. I think what really got me to not watch anymore was the fact that there was a Scott Pilgrim team. Don’t get me wrong cause I LOVE that movie (and I should really read the graphic novels). The problem was that the person who was cosplaying as Knives was really fat…
More depressing stuff… so we’ve actually been in bankruptcy for a long time but during the summer we had to change to a different chapter of bankruptcy to make it easier on us. Despite this fact, we don’t think we’ll be able to keep the house for as long as we want. Ever since July 9th of 2004, we’ve managed to overcome all obstacles that were thrown at us and 
live there for seven years; the best years of my life. If possible, I would really like to keep the house as it’s something that I would love to be able to go back to in the future. After living a life of being in apartments, having a house of our own
was a dream come true. It’s just sad because my father was promised a higher pay rate but he never got it. Instead, later down the road he got a pay cut due to the financial instability between the gasoline stations that my father and my uncle owns. What’s even worse is that college is costing me a fortune and they won’t give me all the financial aid that I need. I even recently sent in a parent plus credit approval form to see if it would make a difference. It got denied (of course) so it made only a slight difference… At this rate, I really will have to apply for a second loan. My total tuition is over 80k so this is going to hurt me really bad if I don’t land a good job in the graphic design area. I just hope that things will go well. I honestly do.
Relationship? LOL. Yeah… not going to happen. Seeing that I’m home almost all the time, how the hell am I going to really going to develop a relationship to the point where I will be able to honestly live a happy love life? Even if I did, my self-confidence will not be able to push me on. Again as I’ve said once before (I can’t remember if I only said that in the password protected post or not), I honestly don’t feel comfortable with having a relationship until I know I will be able to support myself and the one that I will eventually love. My father said something mean to me earlier today and I don’t blame him but I just wish he would understand my situation before he makes the comment that he did. After seeing a commercial about e-harmony I made a remark saying, “Wow, they must be working for a lot of people for them to constantly make new commercials!” My father then replied, “Because there’s a lot of people who are like you. Stay home every day, don’t go out, play games and do nothing. If you don’t go out, you’re obviously not going to find someone.” Well… what the hell am I supposed to do then, go to a bar? I don’t particularly like drinking and I don’t think I’ll really have the confidence to approach someone randomly. While I might be outgoing… I am introverted. This paradox is what keeps me from doing anything and developing friendships differently than most others. While I’m already used to it, no one really invites me to do anything and I don’t like to invite myself to do anything. After a while, it gets tiring to HAVE to ask people to hang out with me. For once I would like to be asked if I would like to go do something. Even though I’m used to it… I wouldn’t mind a change.
So on October 24th I turned 21. What did I do on that day? Nothing special. I didn’t even drink. About a week prior to my birthday, I turned off the option to display my birthday. Naturally only a few people remembered my birthday. Nicole Padro andLeah Alfonso were probably the only two who remembered my birthday on the day of. I’m pretty sure Dania said Happy Birthday too… Anyway… Then there were a few people who commented on my profile wishing a happy belated birthday. It’s the thought that counts at least. Was I depressed about it? … JUST a little. Though I can’t be entirely depressed about it because I knew it would happen if I hid my birthday from my profile. There were maybe two people who I honestly didn’t think who would realize that my birthday had already passed and dropped by to leave a comment saying happy belated birthday. I do appreciate the image that Angeline Lee and Mariepaz Redona collaborated on making (which can be found here: http://fav.me/d4e0kud). It was hilarious because Angeline randomly gives me a text asking me what I would like to see a girl wear. Threw me off guard at first and I couldn’t really figure out what was the meaning behind the question. I figured it out when I eventually saw the image ahaha.
Lastly, Christmas and New Years Eve. Oddly this year did not seem as festive as it was the previous years. Though honestly as the years go by, Christmas becomes less festive. I don’t know if that’s because I’m growing older or some other factor that has yet to be considered. I have asked others though if they felt the same and they agreed with me that the holidays did not seem the way it should have. This year I spent a LOT of money getting gifts for family and my good friends. While I may have become broke from doing so, I think it was rewarding in the very end. To see a smile on my friend’s face is all I need. I got a few presents (some from family and one from Leah). I got a sweatshirt, t-shirt and Zelda:
Skyward Sword from my immediate family, cash from my uncle’s family, and a jacket from my aunt’s family. As always, Leah gave me a package rather than one present. She gave me a bracelet (which represented Balance, so thoughtful!), a small thing of some sweet tea mix (which tastes awesome!), small bottle of Jagermeister (which I eventually used to make some Jager Bombs), a small bottle of Absolut Mandarin and a box of Smirnoffs. If you’re reading this Leah, thank you so much! I can’t seem to find the link but Dania uploaded a few pictures of a letter that was meant to me. She has some nice handwriting! Later though Adrian (another awesome friend of mine) gifted me Fallout: Las Vegas on Steam. If you’re reading this Adrian (which I highly doubt that you are), thanks!
I think this year was also the year that my master Rimu (ahaha, long story but she’s a great friend) also got me into watching ongoing anime shows. I normally wait for them to finish but she got me hooked on certain shows and I couldn’t stop watching ongoing shows ever since then. I guess it’s because it gives me something to look forward to each week. There were a lot of shows that I enjoyed a lot. Though I can’t remember what order they came in so I can’t give a real list ahaha. If you are interested in seeing what I have seen, you can see My Anime List here.
So what am I doing now? Well I’ll answer that in a different blog post. For now I have spent over 30 minutes typing up this entire post which I did not expect to do. I’ve even added images! It’ll really help you see the kind of expressions that I’m having about certain situations… anyway… let’s hope that I will update this more often.
You do forget me.
Huh? What do you mean Dania? ;A; I know there was a letter that you gave me though and I definitely haven’t forgotten that.
So you did get it! You could have replied back then! T____T I thought it was so lame that you didn’t say anything…
Talk to me more often, will you?
Looking back on certain timestamps, I met you in the late 2010. I can probably say though that 2011 was the year in which I got to know you more and partook in many delightful conversations with you.
The holidays and even the years start to blur by, marked only by the changes time makes to our lives. You know that on many levels I relate with your type of personality (outgoing but introverted) so I understand how you may feel about friendships and ‘hanging out.’ No matter what others may say, I think your stance makes the most sense about relationships, rather than going to a bar to jump into one for the sake of ‘having’ one. Once one has a stable and responsible life, then he can look toward supporting others. Without doing this, sacrifices would probably have to be made; to care for ones family or his ambitions? It doesn’t have to be one or the other if there is a solid foundation.
You are one of the few in my friends that I would actually call a deep thinker. I’d hate for you to be held back in any way. Let 2012 be a good year for you and your family.